✖ Pyhä Igloos | Pyhä Magic

Sunday, 11 April 2021

My 26th birthday was a lot different than my 25th. I've always lived in this crazy belief that I cannot age if there isn't any snow on the ground on my birthday. However, this year as I planned to travel where the snow was, we had it plenty in Southern parts of the country as well. You can't always win, can you?

On my birthday this year, I did a trip to Pyhätunturi. It took one 12-hour train ride in a fully booked train, a mask on my face, and a 3-hour trip by bus from Rovaniemi to Pyhätunturi. Gosh, I've missed traveling.

I've always wanted to stay in one of those glass igloos they've got in Lapland. And since you only turn 26 once, I spent a weekend in one. The glasses were able to be heated, so the snow would melt away. The visibility would have been perfect for the Northern Lights if the weather wouldn't have been as snowy and cloudy as it was. It wasn't the most optimal thing as I've always wanted to see the Auroras, but it's definitely a reason to go back next Winter.

The host of the igloos was amazing. He was such an adorable old man who really did make sure everything was okay all the time. It was fun to watch him go around the premises doing a little something here and there once in a while. He also made sure we were aware of all the restaurants nearby, which I understand completely as the global pandemic hasn't really done wonders on the tourism of Lapland.

It was absolutely one of the best things I've done myself on my birthday.

✖ for the first time in forever.

Friday, 9 April 2021

 For the first time in forever, I'm looking forward to the future.

While I've been struggling mentally during the past year, I've done plenty of soul-searching. I've learned a lot of things about myself, I've learned where my limits are and I've learned to give myself more mercy when it comes to certain things. I've understood that I don't have to be perfect, and as cliché, as it may sound - I don't need to be perfect.

I've found something that one may call inner peace. I've learned to control the chaos inside of me. And boy, the chaos itself is a massive one.

I've got my eyes in the future. Even though I plan a lot of renovations for the flat that I'm able to call my home for the first time in almost two years, I plan on selling it. I plan on finding a perfect little two-story apartment with a sauna and my own backyard somewhere nearby. I manifest it daily and work towards that goal. I want to be able to provide my own apartment, without my ex-husband hanging in the same mortgage with me just so I can stay in this apartment. I plan to be in my own field of career by the end of the year. Plenty of changes coming ahead.

For the first time in forever, no matter what I've planned I have the certainty that everything will be okay in the end. I have the certainty that I'm going to make it. I don't have to push things to move them where I want them. I'm looking forward to the time to make its magic, for me to make my own magic.

For the first time in forever, I finally trust myself completely and that scares the shit out of me.
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