✖ all things green | april moodboard

✖ all things green | april moodboard

• Saturday 4 April 2020

Since I've taken some time away from everything, I've been also trying to figure out where to take overdosed on caffeine next. I mean, it's definitely time for a little change - in content if in something. I want to bring up some new additions to the content and start including greenery in it. I mean, my life is dark but I recently counted all my plants and ended up realising I have 26 green plants. So I would really love to include all those things here since they're very close to my heart.

I'm welcoming this Spring with an open mind. Hell, I had all plans sorted out on how to escape life and then the whole coronavirus thing happened - so all plans had to be thrown into a trash bin. Yesterday, I even managed to get myself on 3 new online classes for uni for the summer and if that doesn't define how fucking lost I am, nothing ever will.

I've been thinking a lot about my life lately. My life choices, everything that happened last Autumn and everything that has happened after it until this very day. Even though I find it extremely anxious, I find it also very purifying. I've been able to sort out my thoughts in order, and started going them through in their own pace.

I don't know what this Spring will hold for me, but I'm terrified and excited to find out. I hope there will be lots of plants. Plants have made me happy lately. And it's been a long time since I have been able to even think about being happy. I'm still not healing, or if I am - I don't really notice it myself. Whatever it is, I think there might be light at the end of the tunnel, when I find the end of that tunnel. I'm still a bit lost, but I've accepted it and beginning to be alright with it.

I hope you all have a lovely Saturday, despite all.