✖ making small changes this month

✖ making small changes this month

• Friday 1 March 2019

I'm a huge believer in small changes. And when we're making small changes, they'll have this huge snowball effect and it becomes something huge. And trust me, I'm in a need for a change. No, even better, I'm in a mood for a change.

Last month was physically and mentally one of my hardest months. I went through a few too many panic attacks which apparently were triggered my anxiety towards my current workplace. I also was ill, a lot. Like a lot. And then D was ill and I started falling behind on everything that was holding my personal routines together, like uni and yoga. Yeah, alongside my son, uni and yoga are my top priorities in life. I was living mostly on 3-hours sleep per night, caffeine and cigarettes and if that isn't the highway to hell, I don't know what is. I mean, I'm not saying I don't want to go to hell, I just think I haven't achieved enough to go there to brag about my successes to other dead people.

So this month, I'm going to make some changes in my behaviour and you all can come over, say hi to me on Twitter and watch me successfully fuck it up during the first week of March. Nah, just kidding, I have a good feeling about this.

✖ instead of forgetting the whole damn thing, I'm going to begin a 30-day yoga challenge again and finish it up
In January, I began the DEDICATE - 30-day yoga journey with Yoga With Adriene youtube channel and I'm ashamed to say that I still haven't finished it up. Okay, not even ashamed, my flu which began in the middle of January lasting until the end of February really took its toll on me. But this month, I'm going to kick some ass yoga-wise. I'm also treating myself with a brand new yoga mat, to get me going and actually dedicate into this. I got this.

✖ instead of neglecting my skin, I'm going to actually take care of it
I've been so bad at taking care of my skin and oh boy it shows. My skin has never been in this awful condition as it has been since the beginning of 2019 and I really need to do something about it. I mean, I probably wouldn't care but it all shows up on my face, and I kind of like my face even though it doesn't sound like it at times so I really need to get my shit together on that area.

✖ less coffee, more water
I can't believe I just wrote that. Okay, let's scratch the whole less coffee part and focus on the more water part, right? I was on fire when it came to drinking water for a couple of weeks in February. It really decreased my bloating (which is awful as I'm typing this because guess who has forgotten to drink water again?) and it improved the condition of my skin. So yes, a shitload of water to my way, please.

✖ take better care of my plants
I've been Instagram influenced and I'm currently obsessed with plants. Or well, obsessed with the idea of having living plants in our apartment. So, this month I'm trying to bring our flat into life and head over to Ikea or Plantagen and pick up some cool plants I need to take care of. I tend to forget to water them, and then they die. I think I should try to save those all three plants I already have, but then again if they die I'd have a lot of pretty and new plants around the house? Can you see the issue here?

✖ trying to find the time to declutter my home from all unimportant shit that is floating around
Don't you worry guys, I'm not turning into those "I'm sorry I have to let you go as you're not bringing me joy anymore" but I'm turning into this "I could sell this for a few euros, so I'd have a reason to buy a new pair of shoes". But in all seriousness, I feel like we are drowning in all the stuff we have. And while I'm being extremely minimalist, it makes me anxious. And I really want to reduce everything that is making me anxious. I used to love all the ads that came through our mailbox, but the amount of them made me feel anxious so I had to put a tiny note above our mailbox which says "no ads, thank you." It's been awful, but relaxing, thank you for asking.

✖ on Sundays, I'll plan ahead my week and I stick to that plan
Unless the life gets in the way, of course. But the fact that I've been neglecting so many things because I just haven't had the motivation or energy for it, I became into a realisation that I'm one of those people who need to plan their shit out in order to keep their shit together. Or at least I could try if it would work out. I'm all in for new experiences and if it's another trial and error, I can say that at least I tried.

✖ start taking vitamins
I'm not a fan of different pills but as my immune system which is as stable as an IKEA table, I'm going to have to find a way to boost it so it can hold itself together. Also, I believe it would do wonders to my skin and hair as well. In case if you didn't know, I'm suffering from rheumatoid arthritis, which is an autoimmune disease, so my body is all kinds of fucked up when it comes to fighting different ill bugs. I'm just going to help it out a little.

✖ keep on practising that handstand
It's been one of the funniest things I've done in for so long time! Practising handstands also made me realise how unexistent my upper-body strength is. I always thought it's there, but it isn't. It sure as hell isn't, there. Not at all. So keep on practising and I'll get there!

✖ go to bed at 9PM, no exceptions
Except when I'm in New York and if I happen to have social activity outside home throughout the weekends. However, I have nothing really planned for March except that little trippy-trip to the Big Apple, so that should work out well. Why am I exactly doing this? I'm going to create a routine for myself. A bedtime routine. What, are you serious Jasmin, you? I hear you ask and I answer, yes me.

✖ dedicate two days in a week for looking for a new job
I really need a new job and I can't keep living like this. It doesn't even have to be a new job, it can be another optional resource of an income. But I need to figure out something before I lose my mind completely.

Do you have any goals for the month? Do you think my goals are achievable?

Tomorrow is going to be a bit quiet around here, as we are celebrating my baby's second birthday. Damn they grow up so flipping fast.