✖ taking time for myself: how yoga has helped my mental health?

Wednesday, 20 February 2019

HAPPY WEDNESDAY! We're in the middle of the week already, which I really do not fancy as it means that I'm in the middle of my vacation. However, the girls and I are off to Turku this weekend (again, I should really move my address to Turku by now), and I'm very excited about that.

Today I am here to chat about mental health issues and what has helped with me. Just remember, I am not a professional when it comes to these things (I'm just all kinds of fucked up) and what helps for me can help for you as well, though I don't mean it would. Also, I have a really dark humour and humour is the way I deal with slightly uncomfortable things, so when I'm making fun of me having anxiety and being depressed, it's making fun of me having anxiety and being depressed. Not everyone. Just wanted to let it out there before someone comes over and says "you can't make fun of mental illnesses" because erm, yes I can. If the fun is made about me.

Have you ever had a hobby that feels like your whole mental stability evolves around it? I mean, yoga does its tricks for me but when I'm not able to do yoga due to being ill or just being way too busy it goes downhill from there. So basically, I am mentally stable like an IKEA table but whenever I'm able to be consistent with yoga I feel like that table is able to pull out of being what it's meant to be. Stay together, be a table, hold on to that coffee cup. Without falling apart.

So today, I decided to share with you how yoga has helped my mental health.

 stopping to enjoy the moment
Yoga is a funny thing, you kind of stop for that moment and yet you're doing something. This is the reason why I'm not able to meditate, because I really need to focus my energy on doing something and sitting my eyes closed for longer than one minute does not do its trick on me. In yoga, you focus only for that moment, focus going from asana to another, and it's the definition for a quote "it's the journey, not a destination". It effectively empties everything from your shoulders, everything you've been carrying around.

✖ since starting, the amount of the panic attacks I've had has reduced
After starting being consistent with yoga, I rarely suffer from panic attacks anymore. I'm not saying yoga has directly helped me with my panic attacks, but when combined with the fact that I'm able to sleep better thanks to yoga, the amount of sleep I get has a straight connection to my anxiety and panic attacks.

✖ better sleep
I also suffer from insomnia at times and sometimes I'm living in a blur basically because I've gone for a full week with only 8 hours of sleep in total. Being consistent with yoga has helped me to sleep better and I've even created a little routine for each evening to calm myself down. Would anyone be interested if I shared it over here at the blog?

✖ helps me to deal with social situations
I'm a full-on introvert. Being in a place with people, working at a customer service job, being at uni with all my classmates, sometimes even spending time with my own family - it's sucking all the energy out of me. You know, extroverts basically live for those social moments. They gain energy from it. I, on the other hand, feel like I've done a 20k run after being stuck on a social situation for a bit too long that I can handle.
Also, getting into a new social situation gives me major anxiety. And there are two ways I've dealt with these things with yoga. When I'm home after a socially exhausting day, I do yoga. Before I'm off to a new social situation, I do yoga. It reduces the stress I am in and makes things a bit easier. It doesn't remove the anxiety completely, but it reduces it and I'm totally fine with that.

✖ learning new things
I love to learn new things and currently I'm trying to learn to do a handstand properly. However, it's still going to take a hell lot of practice as I also realised my arm strength is basically non-existent. But hey, I promised to be gentle to myself and we're getting there, me and my body - together & slowly.

✖ learning to appreciate my body
I'm going fully on the terms of my body. In yoga, you don't have to fit in this super yogi mould, and you can find whatever feels good for you. And while you're finding whatever feels good for you, you can still keep it challenging at the same time. You can move in your own pace and take your own time, no one is rushing you to achieve the things you want to achieve. There's no pressure.

What brings you on the mat?

✖ inked

Tuesday, 19 February 2019

Haha, no, I haven't gotten any new ink! Unfortunately. But one of my old-coworkers has and she asked me to picturise her new tattoos for her Instagram. So I did what was asked! Enjoy the pictures.

This is one of those rare photoshoots I've done with her indoors. Actually, this might be the second time we're shooting indoors! She got over to my place, hugged the Smeg fridge in our kitchen, we drank an unhealthy amount of coffee (of course) and got these shots mainly based on a feeling. I love when you don't have to rush things and the inspiration will get its natural flow.

That's what taking pictures is all about for me.

You're in Helsinki area in Finland and fancy booking a shoot with me? Hit me up by email at or DM me on my insta and we'll get a cuppa & those instaworthy pictures sorted. 

✖ what makes a grown-ass man to text sexts to pre-teens?

Monday, 18 February 2019

A Finnish tabloid, Iltalehti, published 18th of February 2019 an article, where two of their journalists went to Kik messenger and pretended to be 13-year-olds. They wanted to research the sexual harassment that is happening in Social Media and especially in anonymous networking applications. They pointed out how easy it is to lie your age to a social media app and how crucial it is for parents to know what their kids are doing in social media. And it's true, it's crucial to know what the kids are doing in social media but it's also true that there are only so little things we can protect our children from.

What we can do, instead of monitoring every single thing our kid does on the Internet, we can raise them in a way that they can come and talk to us no matter what they stumble upon there. We can educate ourselves to know what to do in situations like those, in order to explain why some people contact them in sexual ways and in order to know what to do when sexual harassment (which that is, nothing else) occurs to our children.

I think it's time for us parents, and grown-ups to take responsibility. Not in a way that we would lose the trust between us and our children, and the privacy that is their right which means that us as parents cannot secretly scroll through their smartphones when they are asleep. It's time for us, as grown-ups to be aware what is happening in the World Wide Web, right in front of our eyes and start finding effective solutions for how to deal with the situations like these.

One of the biggest questions in my head at the moment is this: what makes a grown-ass man to text sexts to pre-teens? I mean, they all can't be paedophiles, can they?
During their research, they said there were plenty of men who backed off when they found out how old these girls were the journalists created but there were also men, who didn't give a shit about their age. These "girls" were asked questions like "what's your favourite thing about fucking?" and told how they would "lick their porcelain pussies, pull their huge dicks in and out that pussy" and other things, even worse which I am not going to type here. But just to get you the picture. Also, my personal favourites; dick picks were sent to the "girls". A lot.

And the second biggest question in my head is: how can we stop these things from happening? Is there a way to stop these things from happening?

Unfortunately, I already have the answer to the second question. There is no way we can stop this happening to our children, or even us. I still get my fair daily share of dick pictures on social media. But what we can do instead of accepting the fact that we and our children get sexually harassed on social media, to fight for the better future.

Things we can fight for:
✖ better legislation, come on, it's 2019.
✖ update our laws to cover sexual harassment even on social media

There are also things we can educate ourselves on. We can do our research and simply choose not to close our eyes from things our children see on social media on a daily basis. We can build a relationship with our children, where they don't feel uncomfortable to let you know if something like this happens to them. We can educate our children about harassment, as they should know what it is, instead of accepting the fact that the downside of social media is just receiving dick pics on a daily basis.

We can also do our research and find out where to contact if something like this happens to our children. And we should. The time is up, it's not about us grown-ups receiving abuse online anymore. It has never been. Our children are going through these things too, and we should not close our eyes from it. We have to step up, educate ourselves and our children. And I'm glad someone finally brought this up and out in the open. These things need to be discussed.

✖ for blowing off steam | 7 songs to listen to this week

Hey guys, I have a public service announcement. The headlines of the songs are links to Spotify, so you can click them and go straight to the song you want to listen to if you find a song from my list you really want to listen to. Basically, anything that's written here in something else than black, is a link so you can kind of click that if you want to.

No, I don't get anything out of it but there seems to have been some sort of confusion in the comment box of every single of my song recommendation post comment box, so I kind of wanted to let it out in the air. You don't have to copy paste these in Youtube, you can just click the link.

My vacation began today, and I'm more than excited to spend the next five days on the sofa doing absolutely nothing. Or at least lying to myself I have nothing to do when I'm actually swamped to all the uni work. Our plans to head to the North this week kind of fell apart due to my extensive list of coffee shops I want to visit when we go to New York, so that's why I'm expected to find a hole shaped of me on the sofa on Friday.

I hope you all have a fantastic week ahead!

There are times, we find ourselves needing to blow off some steam. So what would be better than having a perfectly dedicated list for doing that? I can imagine, that if I was the type of person who would go to the gym, these songs would be on my gym playlist. However, these songs are also on my housecleaning playlist. Don't know what that tells about me? Rage cleaning once a week, huh?

Also, this week I really want to share an album with you guys. The band is called God Disease, and my friend is playing drums in that band. They also just released an album a few days ago, "Drifting Towards Inevitable Death", which I highly recommend you to listen to. However, their music might not be for everyone but if you're into metal, go for it. Or perhaps you're in a mood for something out of your usual genre? Go for it.

But for blowing off steam? Let's do this.
You can have it if you want it, have it if you want it, over my dead body.
✖ "Over My Dead Body" by Blind Channel
Okay, wait, wait for a second! While I was trying to Google lyrics for this song (which are non-existent by the way) I found out this is a Finnish band. It's funny how long one can go and just listen to the music of a band without realising where they are from. I'm kind of overwhelmed by this fact at the moment, so perhaps we'll just roll straight onto the next one.
Don't be a dick, don't be an asshole. Just be nice, you don't have to be that guy. Show some respect, just be a person. Love one another, you don't need a reason why.
✖ "Don't Be a Dick" by Bowling for Soup
In case if you haven't noticed, I love brutal honesty. And this song is just plain brutal honesty. And if you're feeling that you've got someone being a total dick in your life, this is the perfect song to channel all that energy and feelings into.
Mickey Mouse is dead, got kicked in the head. 'Cos people got too serious, they planned out what they said, they couldn't take the fantasy. Tried to accept reality.
 ✖ "Mickey Mouse is Dead" by Subhumans
If you are looking for a song which is pretty effin' all over the place, this is the one for you. This is what I like to call "mättöpunkki" and I have no clue how to translate that in English. It could be something about a real angsty proper punk music kind of a thing? I don't know, just listen to it and "mättöpunkki" will get its meaning.
You know what time it is, murder that bassline bitch. 
✖ "Bassline Bitch" by Nova Twins
These girls are rather new, so I wasn't able to find the lyrics and I wasn't able to concentrate properly on trying to figure out what they are saying the most of the time. Don't get me wrong, you can totally hear what they're saying but after that Mickey Mouse song, my brain is still kind of all over the place.
Must it take a life for hateful eyes, to glisten once again. 'Cause we find ourselves in the same old mess, singing drunken lullabies.
✖ "Drunken Lullabies" by Flogging Molly
Flogging Molly is coming to Provinssirock festival held in Seinäjoki, Finland next summer and expect to find me there. However, I'm still trying to get someone to come there with me so the plans are all wide open. Can't flipping wait for it tho, but can't yet build my hopes up.
Here we lay in our final hours, like dying flowers. The price we pay, as you struggle for power that your ego devours.
✖ "Bloody Nose" by Hollywood Undead
This is actually one of my all-time favourite songs. It never gets off from my housecleaning list and I feel like it really helps me with my window washing project, once in two years.
Gotta stay alive, gotta stay alive. Gotta learn survive, gotta learn survive.
 "Gotta Get Through" by The Blinders
I love how all over the place today's post is. I hope you'll enjoy it as much as I did making it. Stay tuned for next week, I promise I've got something a lot calmer lined up for you! 

✖ ford has designed a bed and all I can think about is how to have sex in it

Sunday, 17 February 2019

YES, you read the title right.
YES, it's that Ford.

According to Digital Trends, Ford has come up with a bed by using their lane-keeping system, which is their safety-focused driver-assist technology, which simply keeps your car on its lane by using sensors that analyse the road markings. But how can you use this technology in a bed?

To be honest, I believe it's a brilliant idea. However, it makes me wonder will the bed keep you from having sex? Do you have to turn it off when the action between the sheets is happening?
Or like their slogan, is this meant for the couples who are more creative with their physical activities and do it somewhere else than on their bed?

It's just a prototype, though. But still, I'm intrigued to find out how it'll work out in the end.

✖ twentyøne piløts | 060219 @ Helsinki Ice Hall

Saturday, 16 February 2019

HEY-OO, it's Saturday! Or well, I'm currently living on last Sunday as I am writing this little piece on a train on my way home from Turku and as I like to be on top of the things (and I'm not allowed to fall asleep on this train ride as my sleep routines are all officially fucked and I've got a 4am wake up in the Monday morning...).

Twentyone Pilots performed at Helsinki Ice Hall last week and guess who went there! I did! Again!
This was my second time I've seen them perform live, and like the last time, it was absolutely wonderful. They played all the songs I wanted to hear, except "House Of Gold" which I would have loved to hear but I can absolutely live with that as they played it during their previous tour so I've heard them perform it live before.

Their gig was everything one could expect. They had a flipping burning car up there! It was so effin' cool. I mean, if I was a performing artist I'd totally have over $300 ukulele and I'd play it standing at the roof of a burning car. It's was absolutely amazing, and definitely, an improvement compared to their previous world tour. I think it could possibly have something to do with their increased budget for the tour, as nowadays they're more known and popular. So it's kind of obvious.

It was simply amazing. Nothing beats live music, eh?

✖ putting myself out there: job application madness

Friday, 15 February 2019

It's not a secret that I've spent the whole month looking for a new job. I feel like my time at the current one has come to its end after almost five years and it's time to find some new challenges to deal with. And by new, I really truly from my heart mean NEW. Feels like we've been dealing with same issues at my current workplace, and since there isn't a change coming towards anytime soon and based on the atmosphere they really want all those good employees to leave, it's time to jump off from a sinking boat.

I know it's roughly said about the place I currently work at, but to be honest - they already know how I feel about being there. They also know that I would be somewhere else if I had the chance.
This month, I've been on a mission. I've been on a mission to put myself out there and I've applied for over 50 jobs in my area, in and out my field. And oh boy, let me tell you, applying for jobs should be counted as an Olympic sport of some sort.

You need to know why you're applying, you cannot write "I hate my job, please take me there" and you most certainly need to know how to sell yourself without sounding too braggy. And amongst all that, most places want you to have a 10-year education with 20 years of experience and if you're a woman, you should be over the age of 40 so there's a good chance you will not ever reproduce again. Oh, and you should also know where you see yourself in 20 years of time.

For one job application question, where they asked where I see myself in 5 years, I answered:
It's a tricky question. I'm aiming to graduate in 2022 with bachelors of digital communication/media, I've already reproduced once so a baby is out of the question, I hope to build a career in my of field. But who will know where the life is going to take me, I could be hit by a bus tomorrow and next time anyone will see me is at my own funeral. It's a tough decision between my dream career and a grave, but I sure hope it's not the latter.
I didn't get that job, but at that point, I felt like it's one of the most pointless things to ask. Here's what I should've answered instead:
In five years I see myself working at your company, with my own office corner perhaps and hoping to land on a promotion of some sort.

Here's a bunch of other things I've learned, to ease up your job application madness:
✖ show genuine interest towards the company you're applying to
✖ be yourself
✖ don't fill in the application if you've just spent your day at your miserable job and you're feeling like you hate the whole world
✖ create an excel chart to keep on top of the things and places you've applied to
✖ rebuild your CV to be suitable for the job you're applying for, every single time
✖ keep your LinkedIn profile up to date
✖ you can still apply if you don't fit in all their requirements
✖ don't be afraid to put yourself out there
✖ recommendations are the key

It's a tough world, but we got this, eh? Do you have anything to add on my list?

✖ why my husband and I don't celebrate Valentine's day together?

Thursday, 14 February 2019

Hey, happy Valentine's day y'all.

Once again it's the time of the year when your loved ones fill your house with balloons, chocolates and flowers. Or wait, no, I'm sorry. That's what happens on Instagram. My bad. However, I'm here to share some thoughts I have about Valentine's day.

The thing is, here in Finland Valentine's day isn't about your loved ones. Or the ones that have a special place in your heart and ones who you hope to tie the knot with. Valentine's day here is all about friendships.

The reason I'm typing out this post is mainly that so many of the people I've been talking about this, don't really understand why my husband and I rarely celebrate Valentine's with each other. He buys me flowers and chocolate and I let him have some of that chocolate, and look at the flowers he bought me and that's it. For us, it's not about the relationship we have together. For us, it's about the friendship we have with each other and other people. And what comes to the time after sending out "Happy Valentine's"-texts to our friends, it's a normal day.

Valentine's day translates into Ystävänpäivä in Finnish. Ystävä means friend and päivä means day. So it's basically the day of the friend. Which I believe is amazing, because the name of the day doesn't define who you get to spend it with. Anyone can be your friend, a stranger you met at the random line to a bar or your partner. Perhaps someone you've known for years. And no one feels left out, because they might not have that special one yet. Since there's always someone for someone.

How do you spend your Valentine's?

✖ for a train journey | 5 songs to listen to this week

Wednesday, 13 February 2019

WELL HELLO THERE WEDNESDAY! Thanks for being patient with me, you guys. My week did not start as expected and that's why everything's been a bit quiet around here for almost a week. I'm currently sat on my sofa as I'm typing this post, wrapped in a blanket like a burrito.
I managed to catch a cold during the weekend, which really doesn't surprise me in any way knowing that my immune system is basically shit, and I've been basically sleeping off the 38,5°C degree fever these past three days. However, it's time for my weekly song recommendations!

I've spent a lot of time on a train last week (a reason for the title), and holy crap how amazing things I got to experience during the weekend. Guys, wonderful things happen when you least expect them to happen. So hold on to those great moments you are able to experience and cherish them for the rest of your life.

And I don't know where I'm gonna go, but I don't care I'm on the road. Never been a perfect soul but I will not apologize. Been a lot of places in this life, and I did a lot wrong I can't make right. Never been a perfect soul but I will not apologize.
✖ "Apologize" by grandson
This is actually the first song I've heard from grandson and it swept my feet off, that's how much I enjoy listening to it. Also, it gives me these "you're a tough cookie" vibes, which makes me love it even more. It's quite new, it was published early this month.
I jump off and into your arms but I can't trust the fall. Take my voice, I'm giving it though I don't feel safe at all.
✖ "The Fall" by Half Alive
I recently just discovered this band, and I can't believe how Twenty One Pilot-ish it sounds! And I'm absolutely loving it. Their lyrics are quite melancholic just like with Twenty One Pilots and I think that's what I personally find the most attractive in their songs. Also the flow of their songs, it's so smooth and easy to fall into.
I really tried to be good, but goodness, won't come easy to me. You're too good in your old ways, in others you're evil like me.
✖ "Never Alone" by White Lies
The very first time I heard this song it instantly gave me those travel vibes. You know the feeling when you sit on a bus, listen to this and imagine you're on a music video? This song is it. And it's uplifting melody adds some extra in it. Just letting that feeling go straight through you and perhaps for a little while, everything feels okay.
As we slow dance, I became your statue, frozen. 'Times I wonder, are we just a puff of smoke? Yeah. Underneath this bed of ashes, still withholding everything. Like we were never close.
✖ "Ready To Let Go" by Cage the Elephant
I'm currently obsessed with this song. I love the mood, the instruments, the lyrics. Everything in it. And it's so easy to fit it in some sort of a life event of your own. So it's basically everything you need from a song.
Hold on, nothing's forever. I know, things will get better. Tired of the radio, it never makes me feel the way it should.
✖ "Radio" by Busted
Busted recently came up with a new album, which I haven't gotten so deeply into yet. It's on my to-do list but one of the songs popped out instantly and I found myself listening to this song multiple times last week. So it's definitely worth to be recommended.

What have you been listening to lately?

✖ what did I learn from being a backstage host for two evenings?

Sunday, 10 February 2019

There are times when I know the right blog name has been chosen. It used to be all about those little things, with Little Things With Jassy but overdosed on caffeine; that's one of the best names I've come up with.

The best part is, that I've might have actually overdosed on caffeine. Thanks for being patient with me when I haven't had time to write anything new for you this weekend. Okay, to be fair, this blog is still rather new so I don't believe anyone even noticed my absence. However, I learned a bunch of things this weekend and I don't think I love anything more than turning all kinds of experiences into learning experiences, so here we go again.

I'm currently sat in my best friends apartment floor, while she's sleeping her fever & flu away, I should really be packing my stuff up and hop on a train back home but here I am, writing as per usual. It's been so difficult to be without writing anything these past four days. Haha, perhaps I've found some inspiration from my journey.

I recently wrote about the Ruishelmi Winter Festival, or how it was still uncertain if I was going or not because it meant that I would have gone to work there if I was about to go. Ruishelmi Winter Festival was held for the very first time this year, as Ruisrock Festival is having it's 50th birthday this year. This was sort of a pre-festival, with some of Finland's top artists playing out there. My job included working at the backstage, checking up on artists and if they have everything they need and cleaning after them. But what did I learn, especially as a first-timer in an actual event?

✖ I'm perfect for the job, especially with Finnish artists because I have no effin' clue who they are
I haven't been following the Finnish music scene with such intensity that I'd know what the artists look like. I know names, songs and stuff but I do not know what they look like. As it turns out, I'm very good at handling them with a "normal person"-level because their artist status has zero effect on me. Okay, there are three exceptions: Samu Haber, Ville Valo & Lauri Ylönen but none of them were there so, basically no problem there then.

✖ I could do that shit for a living
It was a rather small festival, but it was so flipping fun! I'm sort of hoping to be able to go working at the Ruisrock Festival next summer and do the same thing. It's going to be a hell more hectic there, but it was so much fun. I've completely forgotten how amazing it's actually do something like a job and actually enjoy it. Like purely, completely enjoy it.

Overall, I learned so many new things. However, I'm not sure whether I can share them here on my public blog or not. Throughout, it was an amazing and valuable experience. I managed to connect with some new people, I had the most welcoming team ever and everything was just perfect. I honestly can't remember when was the last time I actually went to work smiling, and I've been smiling like a complete idiot during the whole flipping weekend.

I hope every single one of you has had a great weekend, and keep your eyes peeled this way for tomorrow's music recommendations for the week! I promise, there is more than one artist ;).

✖ that one night I walked in my sleep…

Tuesday, 5 February 2019

I used to walk in my sleep a lot when I was younger. Apparently, that's something that kids do sometimes. And I did it quite often, especially if I wasn't at home. Perhaps that was a way I coped with something that had happened during the day. I really don't know why people walk in their sleep at times. But when I do, it's usually the middle of a Winter.

Last time I walked in my sleep, I was 10. I walked out from our front door in the middle of the night, in Winter, wearing only my jammies and wool socks. My mum had woken up to it thankfully, so she came to collect me there and I heard about it the next morning I woke up.

That was the last time, until last week. Last week, I walked in my sleep again. And I don't know why I'm interested in leaving the building I am in when I walk in my sleep. Perhaps that's the way my mind tells me I've been at the same place for too long, who really knows? But it could have been dangerous as fuck.

We were out last Saturday evening to celebrate my friend's new home. We got home around three in the morning and I went to bed almost straight away. You know, that random moment when you wake up and you have locked yourself outside of your own apartment and you're standing in your building's hallway wearing nothing but your oversized t-shirt and wondering what the actual fuck you are doing there? No? Just me? Okay.

the upsides
✖ we live in an apartment building, so I didn't wander outside in the actual snow inferno that was on
✖ I decided to wear a t-shirt when I went to bed
✖ it was the middle of the night, so I believe none of my neighbours saw me
✖ my husband woke up to let me in

the downsides
✖ I could have gone out in the snow half-naked
✖ my husband sleeps pretty deeply, so it took a while
✖ I could have slept naked like I usually do

It is so confusing to wake up from your hallway, wonder what the fuck you are doing out there when last moment you remember is placing your head on your pillow in your own bed.

Have you ever walked in your sleep?

✖ twentyøne piløts | 7 songs to listen to this week

Monday, 4 February 2019

Hey, happy Monday you lovely people! I hope your week is filled with a bunch of amazing things and lots of coffee. Or tea, or basically whatever floats your boat to a way or another.

My week is going to be filled with train journeys, a lot of music, work, uni, a student party and a lot of music once again. This week, I wanted to share seven songs for you to listen to from Twentyone Pilots. It's one of my favourite bands and they've got some amazing lyrics and sounds. Also, I'm dedicating this week for them, as they're coming to Helsinki for a gig, and you guessed it right! I'm off to see them.

This is my second time I'll see them perform live, and I bet I won't be disappointed this time as they were so good the last time I saw them, that I've become to a conclusion that they really can't be bad. If Twentyone Pilots isn't for you, do not worry - I've got some goodies for you next Monday. Either way, I encourage you to take this journey into their music if you haven't. It's always fun and good to try new things out.

Oh, I know how to levitate up off my feet, and ever since the seventh grade I learned to fire-breathe. And though I feed on things I fell, you can learn to levitate with just a little help. Learn to levitate with just a little help.
✖ Levitate
Levitate is one of my favourite songs from their newest album, "Bandito". They are currently on the "Bandito Tour" and I believe they're going to play a bunch of songs from the album. Including this.
It has a simple and catchy tune in it, which itself makes it sound good and when you pay attention to the lyrics, it'll be better, let me tell you that.
It's only time before they show me, why no one ever comes back. With details from beyond.
✖ Leaving the City
This is kind of a sad song (which one of their songs isn't, to be honest?), but this is something I really can relate to. I left the small town I used to live in shattered, feeling a bit lost (a bit more lost than I am now), I left it because it had nothing to offer me, I didn't like the atmosphere, so many things had happened that honestly, and I am being brutally honest here now, I would not be on this planet if I had stayed. I would have killed myself. Times were tough at the time, and even almost 8 years later, I can find songs that hit me in such a deep level, reminding me of the things I've been through. However, this song doesn't remind me of the bad things, it tells me that I made it out alive and that's all that matters.
We don't believe what's on TV, because it's what we want to see. And what we want we know we can't believe, we have all learned to kill our dreams.
✖ We Don't Believe What's on TV
This is such a funny song and it has some killer ukulele chords in it! And holy crap it's hard to play, especially if you've got short fingers like I do. I mean, I've got serious baby hands it's ridiculous. But I'm determined to learn to play this with the ukulele by the end of the year, I'll keep you posted how that goes along.
I'm fairly local, I've been around. I've seen the streets you're walking down. I'm fairly local, good people now.
✖ Fairly Local
This one is such a powerful song. If you need a boost for basically anything, this should be one of your go-to songs. Not because of the lyrics, but the tempo and depth of the song. It instantly gives me the "I can kick ass today" -mood. It's odd I know if you listen to the lyrics.
No one really knows his mind, and no one knows behind his eyes. The man deserves a medal but he's never really won a prize, before.
✖ Johnny Boy
This is one of the most confusing songs they've ever created, and it was so fun to figure out what the lyrics could be about. They've got so cryptic lyrics in their songs at times, and that's what I really like their songs. They're puzzles I want to solve. And I really love puzzles. What do you think the song could be about?
And I know that I can fight, or I can let the lion win. I begin to assemble what weapons I can find, 'cause sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind.
✖ Migraine
This song is not about a migraine, it's about mental health. It's about depression and suicidal thoughts. However, it has some hope in it too, as "we've made it this far" and "know that life has a hopeful undertone." It's deep and one of the most relatable songs I've listened.
You fell asleep in my car I drove the whole time. But that's okay, I'll just avoid the holes so you sleep fine. I'm driving, here I sit cursing my government for not using my taxes to fill holes with more cement.
✖ Tear in My Heart
And for the last but not least, the tear in my heart because sometimes you've got to bleed to know that you're alive and have a soul.

✖ brooklyn in helsinki

Sunday, 3 February 2019

Another Sunday and another week coming to its end. In a weird way I really do love Mondays, as for me it marks a fresh start and next week is going to be a hectic one, so I'm going to have to gather all my little positive sparkles to go through it successfully.

I recently landed for a backstage host gig, which is something new and different for me and while I'm a nervous wreck I'm also excited about the whole opportunity. Finally, something actually interesting and close to my future career is happening in my life, and I couldn't be more stoked.

However, it's time to talk about that later and skip back to 29th of January when my friend Maija and I were looking for those NYC vibes from Brooklyn Cafe which is located in Helsinki. It was such a cold and snowy day that day and our plans were to originally to go and do a little photo shoot, but we just spent 4 hours eating in different places.

Brooklyn Cafe in Punavuori district is a small cosy coffee shop. The jazz is playing, the staff is speaking English and you can smell the bagels when you enter the door. It refers to itself as "Brooklyn in Helsinki", and they couldn't be more right. Or well, how would I know, I haven't been to a cafe in Brooklyn before. Let's get back to this after our visit to New York, as I've got a long list of coffee shops I'm going to visit.

And the chocolate chip cookies over there are to die for! The tastiest cookies I've ever eaten, and that's why it's one of my favourite places to pop by when I've got some spare time and I happen to be close by.

Do you have any favourite coffee shops?

✖ how to split photos for Instagram? | Adobe Photoshop tutorial

Saturday, 2 February 2019

Recently, I posted a picture of our trip to Northern-Norway on my Instagram. I've been spending some time with trying to up my Photoshop editing skills (I've been neglecting the whole desktop app for flipping ages now, because it was in Finnish and I have no clue how to use it in Finnish but I switched the language, finally and now I'm back at my game) during the sick leave I had in January.

Getting back to Photoshop was so much fun, and for my first edit, I decided to go for splitting photos for Instagram. You know those seamless two-post pictures, one picture divided into two frames. I got asked how to actually do it, so I decided to go for it and share a tutorial for it over here.

I'm really bad at explaining myself, so thanks for bearing me with this.

step 1 - cropping the picture and setting the right ratio
You want to open the image you want to split for Instagram in Photoshop. Just get right to it and click the "crop tool" on the left side of your screen. After choosing the crop tool, the ratio options will appear to the toolbar on top of the screen.
You want to set this ratio to 12:5 and it should look like in the picture down below. When you've set the crop tool over the parts you want to include in your picture, just hit enter on your keyboard.

step 2 - setting a guide layout
Setting a guide layout is crucial for splitting the image equally for Instagram. You can set as many columns as you like, but for a two-picture seamless Instagram post you're going to want to set it as "2". Once you set it, it'll give you guidelines for actually splitting the image.
There will be something previously set for "gutter", but you can just leave it empty so it doesn't fuck the seamless effect up.

step 3 - slicing the picture using the guides
Now that we've set the guidelines, we want to slice the picture by using them. For doing that, you're going to want to right click the crop tool on the left side of your screen and choose a tool called "slice tool". Then, just like we set the ratio previously, you can easily find a button saying "slices from guides" at the top of your screen, click that and voila! You've successfully sliced your picture.

step 4 - exporting your slices
File -> Export -> Save for web
Then, at the very right at the opening window, switch the picture file to jpeg and set the quality to 100. Then click save, and you're good to go! Transfer the pictures on your phone and post them to Instagram by using the photo carousel.

✖ february, the month of love

Friday, 1 February 2019

EY, we made it to the February? January wasn't that long at all, right? Usually, it feels like January lasts for ages but I have to admit, this time it went in the blink of an eye.

February is going to be an exciting month for me, personally and I can't wait to share more about it with you as the month goes on. Back in the days when LTWJ still was a thing, I used to set myself monthly goals for blogging. However, this time, as this blog is about me discovering myself (how selfish can one sound?), I've themed the months for the year and this month is all about love. And my love of making lists. And setting goals.

This month I decided to focus on things I love and set some goals, then get started from there. So here are my goals for the month:

✖ finish up a 30-day yoga challenge
✖ turn off all notifications from your phone for the whole month, except the important ones like iMessage, calls and WhatsApp
✖ read at least one book which isn't uni-related
✖ drink more water

The thing is, my Yoganuary went a bit under a bench after I caught an ear infection and combining that with yoga really didn't work out the way I would have wanted. Yoga is one of those things which have been keeping me sane lately. Also, I really suck at drinking water.

There are also three exciting events happening this month, next week actually.
✖ 21pilots performing live at Helsinki ice hall
✖ Pikkulaskiainen student event in Turku
✖ Ruishelmi winter music festival in Turku

Oh! And later this month we're off for a small trip to North. Exciting things happening, but if this blog seems to be a bit quiet next week it's because I'm hungover in Turku.

What goals & plans you have for the month?
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