✖ the bad boy effect: why did we fall in love with a psycho version of Dan Humphrey?

Thursday 31 January 2019

I'm sat here, with my cup of coffee and facing the aftermath of the few glasses of wine I drank last evening in order to celebrate my birthday. Thanks for all the birthday wishes on Twitter too, it's wonderful to realise how many people actually read my tweets about Twitter birthday balloons.

Now, here is the deal. If you haven't seen the latest addition in Netflix, the Netflix Original series called "YOU", I recommend you to come back to this blog post after you've actually seen it. If you haven't seen it, read this blog post and all the spoilers in it (which this blog post might contain, I haven't quite thought it through yet, I'm basically always winging these), it's on you. You like living on the edge, do you? Yes, you do. Keep on reading, then.

Penn Badgley, I'm sorry but even going for a character like Joe (YOU), won't wash off the Dan Humphrey (GOSSIP GIRL) off your shoulders. Especially if Joe is just a teeny weeny bit more obsessive version of Dan.
 Here's what we loved about Dan Humphrey:
     ✖ he is a perfect next-door type of a boy
     ✖ he does adorable things for the women he falls in love with
     ✖ he is enthusiastic about literature, which makes him clever
     ✖ he is nice, perhaps a bit too nice
     ✖ he managed to surprise us all and turned out to be the original Gossip Girl

Here's what Beck loved about Joe when she had no clue about his "hobbies":
     ✖ he seems like a perfect next-door type of a guy
     ✖ he does adorable things for the women he falls in love with
     ✖ he is enthusiastic about literature, which makes him clever
     ✖ he is nice, perhaps a bit too nice
     ✖ there's something mysterious about him

They are both basically alike. And because they are alike, and we fell in love with Dan, we also fell in love with Joe. And they both effect on us on a bad boy level. Dan wasn't a bad boy in the specific meaning of those two words and Joe was a bit more than just a bad boy, but they both had a dark side in them. But why do we fall for these type of people? People with a dark side in them?

There have been some studies about why women do fall for men with this darkness in them. However, I'm not going to refer to them because I am me and as a self-proclaimed kitchen psychologist (which means I have no clue about anything, do not take me seriously or refer to me as a professional in this matter), I'm going to analyse this thing a bit.

the mystery
People like Joe, tend to keep themselves as a huge puzzle no one can solve. They can keep up the curtain of the mystery for a really long period of times. They know things about you, more than you could imagine. You can easily share your things with them, however, they're not sharing their stuff with you. Something they do share, but it won't be specific or too personal, which keeps the mystery alive. They're like a puzzle we want to solve, which makes them more attractive.

they do adorable and romantic things for you
If a man does adorable and romantic things for you, it doesn't automatically mean that he's a bit off tune with his head. And we love them for that, those tiny little gestures and things they do to keep us interested in them. To keep us love them, in a cute, not at all weird way. We like to receive the attention. We love the fact that they'd go to pick us up the moon.
And while people like Joe are willing to murder someone because of a woman she loves, that's not adorable or even romantic. However, it indicates us that this man is willing to do anything for a woman he loves, and that's probably one of the reasons we actually like Joe. In a weird and twisted way. But that's okay, it's just a TV series. (Like there wouldn't be people like him in real life, way to go, Jasmin, live in denial.)

the attractiveness
I have a type and that type is dark-haired, dark-eyed tattooed man. I mean, if I see one you can be guaranteed my feet are swept off and if I was single I'd probably spread my legs wide open each time I see one of those creatures going around. Okay no, I'm sorry, I still have some dignity left.
Mysterious people are attractive and mysterious, like attractiveness can be so many different things to different people, it doesn't always have to be a dark-haired, dark-eyed and tattooed man. I can be basically anything that specific woman finds attractive, look-wise and soul-wise. People like Joe, and Dan, are usually pretty attractive. Perhaps that's why we fall for them.

they are clever
They are clever and well-read. They are good at stuff they do, and they can amaze you with their ability to be clever in an area they are experts in. That's why Sherlock Holmes can be found attractive, despite his lack of social skills. He's clever. And when we find a clever man, our ovaries instantly think the babies we'll make together will be clever too. And when we think with our ovaries, it really doesn't matter if the dude has murdered a couple of our friends without us knowing. Emphasis on the words, "without us knowing."

the conclusion
There's no conclusion. We fall in who we fall in, whether they're good or bad.
It's some sort of love chemistry.
And I don't know anything about anything, I just wanted to play with a thought of it.

✖ 24 brutally honest things I've learned in 24 years

Wednesday 30 January 2019

Just like any other Wednesday, except that it's not. It's my birthday today, and as I am turning 24 today (yeah, I'm basically one leg on my way to the grave already, does anyone want to come to coffin shopping with me later this week, I like to be prepared?), I decided to share 24 brutally honest things I have learned in 24 years.

It's going to be a list, there won't be any explanations and in case if you want me to explore the subject more over here on my blog, please let me know in the comments below and the blog post will be written. Grab a cuppa and prepare yourself for 24 brutally honest things I've learned in 24 years. And by brutal, I actually mean brutal. And by honest, I actually mean honest. So let's hit it.

✖ I'll never eat tastier chocolate cake in my life again, after the one I ate in Gozo, Malta back in 2009.
✖ Life is too short to give a fuck what other people think of you.
✖ Life is too short for counting calories.
✖ Saving money is fun.
✖ It's totally okay to get excited about a new vacuum cleaner.
✖ Sometimes relationships suck.
✖ Sometimes you need to let people go.
✖ Yoga fixes everything.
✖ Life is too short for bad sex.
✖ Life is too short to be stuck in a shitty job.
✖ You can never have too much pizza.
✖ If it's not meant to be, then it's not meant to be.
✖ Even the perfect relationships end sometimes.
✖ It's okay to get lost.
✖ You don't have to prove your worth to anyone but yourself.
✖ People will talk about you behind your back, it's up to you whether you listen to them or not.
✖ Lost trust can be built again in time.
✖ You don't need a father. It could be nice to have one, but you don't need one.
✖ The family isn't based on DNA.
✖ There's not an issue a cup of coffee could not fix. Or at least make better.
✖ Life is too short to be spent with people that are toxic for you.
✖ Your past won't define your future.
✖ You don't have to kiss peoples arses to get where you want.
✖ You don't have to take the BS from anyone.

✖ let's get cosy | 7 songs to listen to this week

Monday 28 January 2019

Hello there, world.
This is your Monday morning reminder that you are powerful beyond measure, that you are capable of pretty much anything you are willing to work for, and that you could change your life today.
I don't know about you guys, but I sure as hell needed that quote for today.

I made a promise last week, to come up with a weekly list of songs that I'll recommend to you and what would be a better day than Monday to do that? So let's kick off the brand new week with some songs, and this week, it's all about those cosy feeling songs.
What songs make you feel cosy? I'd be thrilled to know!

So I played the beginning, again and again. 'Til there was nothing more I could find. Whatever you needed from me, I'm not sure. I only wish I had complied.
✖ "Sea Of Clouds" by Deer Tick
For some reason listening to this song makes me feel like I'm in an indie movie. I don't know why but it does. Also, this is one of the cosiest songs to listen to, especially when it's -25°C degrees outside, a light snowing happening and you are snuggled up on your sofa, writing and drinking a hot beverage. For me, that would be a cup of coffee, just like my soul - pitch black.
And I told you to be patient, and I told you to be fine. And I told you to be balanced, and I told you to be kind. And in the morning I'll be with you.
✖ "Skinny Love" by Bon Iver
This song is OLD. But definitely GOLD. And as cliché it is, it has earned its spot on my cosy playlist for the week. If you want instant cosy vibes, put it on and you'll have no regrets.
But I've been thinking maybe, just maybe, I am enough. And I've been thinking lately, just maybe, I'm worthy of, worthy of a better love.
 "Enough" by Dani Sylvia
My friend actually recommended me this one last week and ever since I've been in love with the whole artist. Last week was also the first time I've heard of her and this song of hers is so powerful with all its lyrics, music and story that it'll give you instant goosebumps if you can relate to it. And it's fucking relatable, let me tell you that.
Maybe all we are are just fools with hearts that tried too hard, and maybe that's just fine as long as you're here in my arms.
✖ "Maybe, I'm Afraid" by lovelytheband
lovelytheband has reached a special place in my heart during 2018 and it's definitely one of my favourites to go to for feeling cosy. You might remember one of their songs from the blog post I did last week and this one is a bit more powerful than that, with lyrics that'll turn your emotional senses up.
I'm happy for you. I'm smiling for you. I'd do anything for you, for you.
✖ "Feelings Are Fatal" by mxmtoon
If the sound of ukulele doesn't do the trick for you, I don't know what will. Funny fact about the writer here, I've been really into playing the ukulele lately. Just sayin'. Not that it would make any difference.
If I lay here, if I just lay here? Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
✖ "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol
This is probably a song you've all heard, and if you haven't, where have you been? It's a classic by now.
She's walking down the street, blind to every eye she meets. Do you think you'll be the guy, to make the queen of the angels sigh?
✖ "Hello, I love you" by The Doors
Hello, be cosy, let me take you on a journey. To listen to some oldies, as they're good for you.
I'm really bad at rhyming, perhaps that's the reason I don't do poems. Or write songs.

✖ the importance of a human connection

Sunday 27 January 2019

It's Sunday, so grab your morning cuppa and let's chat about the importance of a human connection.

I recently stumbled upon a quote, which resonated me in a level I've never experienced before. And this is coming from a person who could go through Pinterest the whole day pinning different UI/UX, fonts, pictures of adorable babies and who would have guessed? Inspirational quotes. And I really want to talk about that quote today.

Here's what you need to know about where I stand.
I study digital communications, and it includes:
     ✖ user interface design (UI)
     ✖ user experience design (UX)
     ✖ concept designing
     ✖ front-end developing
     ✖ service design
     ✖ social media managing

Which means, that I will be one of those people who will most likely be the one to design or collaborate in some sort of a designing process of an app, even a social media software, which will most likely take over your life. However, I don't want it to take over your life. End of story.

Meanwhile, I love brainstorming, coding and designing different web products, services and applications, I'm also a firm believer of the importance of a human connection. I mean, is it really fun to text to your loved one from the other end of the sofa and waiting for them to reply you with a gif about a cat? Is that life you want to pursue? Is that life you want to fall in?

And yes, I used the term "fall in." Why it's falling? Because it's damn addictive. It's addictive to scroll through your phone. Each time a new notification pops out to that locked screen of yours, you're eager to know what's happening out there. Social Media is like this whole different world, where we've transferred ourselves into - to be social. Even though we could be social face to face and in real life.

So consider this as my Sunday reminder to you, to remember the importance of a human connection. Do you want to be the wall someone tries to talk to when all you hear and see is on Twitter?
Do you want to be the one who is talking to a wall, when all they can do is scroll 9gag like a zombie?

Just food for thought for you today.
Stay awesome.
Stay present.

✖ busy life hacks

Saturday 26 January 2019

Life gets hectic at times and while it's important to try and stop, sometimes stopping during the weekdays is basically impossible. Especially if you're like me and you're studying full-time, working part-time and rest of the time you've got in your hand you're looking after a toddler.

Don't have time for yourself? I got you covered.
Don't have time for cleaning the apartment? I got you covered.
Don't have time for breakfast? I got you covered.

Let's hack our busy lives because sometimes it's just needed.

when you don't have time for yourself
✖ take extremely long showers so you can be alone with your thoughts and you can easily add a face mask or two to this combo, hair mask. Just sit on that floor and sing, if that's something that floats your boat (it floats mine).
✖ book yourself a yoga class outside your home. I'm a firm believer in doing yoga at home but since my ex-coworker dragged me into an actual yoga with an actual people in it and we've been doing this for a few times per month, it was a gamechanger. If yoga is not your thing, try to find something else.
✖ lock yourself in your closet and eat that chocolate in peace.
✖ be selfish at times, because how can you look after someone else if you won't look after yourself too?

when your apartment is a mess again
✖ shut down the lights when it gets dark and you won't see the mess around you.
✖ always make sure that the dirty dishes go into the dishwasher and that the dishwasher gets emptied when it's finished.
✖ dedicate one day for decluttering everything, and I mean everything, you have. Less stuff you've got, less you have to clean.
✖ lock yourself in your closet and eat that chocolate in peace.

when you don't have time for breakfast
✖ be like me and skip it. I wouldn't recommend this to anyone though, but if you feel like you want to live on the edge, then sure, go for it.
✖ plan ahead and prepare your breakfasts the day before. Did I hear you mention overnight oats? Here's a quick recipe for one!

kiwi-banana overnight oats
     ✖ one banana
     ✖ 2 kiwi fruits
     ✖ 2dl oats
     ✖ 2dl water

     ✖ fresh banana & kiwi on top

Peel and dice the fruits. Measure oats and water in a bowl, add fruits and mix them with a stick blender. Let it stay in the fridge overnight (or at least half an hour if you want it right at that very moment). Add fresh fruit on top and enjoy.

Do you have any busy life hacks to add to this list?

✖ oh 2019, lookin' fine.

Friday 25 January 2019

Since I'm a firm believer of Twitter polls, I mean seriously, if you're not following me on Twitter already I'd recommend you to do so because I'm hilarious and all that shit.

But yes, I'm a firm believer of Twitter polls and I like to ask people a lot of things via them. It can be basically anything between trying to prove my exam book wrong or if you like pineapple on your pizza or not. Earlier this week I asked you what you guys want to read about over here. Even though I've planned to write about all of them, but it was definitely worth the poll.

Because polls are amazing. And I love them. Such great polls.

As a result of that poll, I'm sharing today what 2019 is holding up for me and I'm stoked. In the original tweet, I was asking if you wanted to read about my travel plans for the year but I decided to wing it and change it up a little and share what 2019 is actually having in storage for me. In whole.

✖ Kuusamo, Finland
✖ New York City, USA
✖ Copenhagen, Denmark + Legoland!
✖ Road trip around Southern-Norway

Our travels include plenty of road trips, considering that we're driving to Kuusamo, Copenhagen and around Southern-Norway. The car is meant to be driven eh?

events that I'm excited about
✖ 21pilots
✖ Pikkulaskiainen (a student event in Turku, Finland)
Ruishelmi festival (this is still under a question mark, considering that it's happening in a few weeks)
✖ Lukas Graham
✖ Muse
✖ Provinssi rock festival
✖ Ed Sheeran
✖ Karmarock festival

If I had to choose three words to describe my 2019, they would be "driving, being broke & music".

I'm actually pretty stoked about all these coming up in such a short period. Perhaps I'll find myself in Copenhagen? Or in the crowd at the concert of Muse? Perhaps in Brooklyn?

What's 2019 holding up for you?

✖ five songs I've been listening to non-stop

Thursday 24 January 2019

Hey happy Thursday, you lovely lot.
I've been kicking some ass with writing this week (please don't get used to this surreal activity over here, my sick-leave is almost over as tomorrow I'm off to work).

Today, I wanted to share five songs with you I have been listening to way too much lately. The thing is, once I find a song which lyrics I really like (no matter what they're about) I begin to listen to only those songs until I get sick of them or until I find something new that resonates with me on a deeper level. They are not genre or artist related, they are mostly lyrics related. As that's what I pay most attention to when I'm listening to a new song. And that is also why I struggle to enjoy songs that are on top-charts currently, as they have no message in them or story whatsoever. It's just one word repeated bunch of times in music which makes my ears want to take off and move to the Philippines.

the front of Oodi public library in Helsinki, Finland during the LuxHelsinki light festival
I like that you're broken, broken like me. Maybe that makes me a fool. I like that you're lonely, lonely like me. I could be lonely with you. 
✖ "Broken" by lovelytheband
This is basically, based on my point of a view, a story about two lonely people who connect even though they're from different worlds. The storyteller in this one isn't feeling comfortable in the place he is with her, however, she makes him feel comfortable by just being there. And that's such a beautiful story about love, being broken and finding the connection with someone who is like you. Isn't that what life is pretty much about?
But maybe it's the worst in me, that's bringing up the worst in you. I know we can fix these kinks, but the worst in me doesn't want to work on things. But the best in me wants to love you, but the worst in me doesn't want to.
✖ "Worst In Me" by Julia Michaels
This is a story about love which is lost. A story about two people who are scared of fixing things, when they're broken. It's like the storyteller has given up on trying, and you know, you give up on trying when you think you've tried all you possibly can. Then get used to the situation. It's kind of a sad story. However, she's not ready to lose him and she'll be ready to work things out if he's willing to put his own effort in.
Let's say we up and left this town, and turned our future upside down. We'll make pretend that you and me, lived ever after happily.
✖ "House Of Gold" by 21piløts
I'm a huge fan of Twentyone Pilots even though their lyrics are a bit dark at times. Considering that I listen to quite melancholic songs most of the time, it's no surprise there is a song from them on this list. Sometimes I wonder if I was happier if I resonated better with more positive music? However, life is too short not to listen to the songs that you don't enjoy.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose. Nothing, don't mean nothing, hon, if it ain't free, no no. And feeling good was easy, Lord, when he sang the blues. You know, feeling good was good enough for me, good enough for me and my Bobby McGee.
✖ "Me and Bobby McGee" by Janis Joplin
There come times when I'm obsessed with the artist behind the songs. Lately, those two artists I've been obsessed with are Janis Joplin and Amy Winehouse. I don't know if my body is planning to die for an overdose (on caffeine, I don't do heroin or drink enough alcohol to kill myself with it) at the age of 27 like these two or what is going on and why I'm listening to these two artists non-stop on my Spotify.
Mama said don't give up, it's a little complicated. All tied up, no more love and I'd hate see you waiting. They say it's all been done but they haven't seen the best of me, so I got one more run and it's going to be a sight to see.
✖  "High Hopes" by Panic! At the Disco
Decided to end this post on a high note (ha-ha) so to say and have something encouraging on this list as well. High Hopes is the one I go to when I need some encouragement with whatever I happen to go through and it's been on my earpods for quite many times now.

What have you been listening to lately? What kind of music do you enjoy listening to?
I was thinking about creating a series on songs I'll share with you guys weekly, the ones I've been listening to a lot and the ones I've recently discovered. How would that sound? I'd say that could be kind of a cool idea!

✖ why I deleted my Instagram?

Wednesday 23 January 2019

If you've been following me for a while, you know that I disappeared, went completely MIA from Instagram for a short period of time. It kind of looked like all was going well, there was no sign of the things I have had gone through and while I was scrolling my old account, I felt like it wasn't mine - if you know what I mean.

I wanted to be on Instagram as myself. Not some sort of a random Finnish woman who happens to be some sort of a mum blogger while her life is all sunny days and daisies. I mean, don't get me wrong - my old Instagram was themed, it was insanely carefully thought, all captions and hashtags were planned and the struggle of growing the account was weighing on my shoulders.

picture of a young dark haired woman behind with a tattoo on her back that says perspective
picture of an Instagram profile jjjasuuuu
✖ just another paper cut survivor, who also happens to be into photography, coffee, rock music & coding.
Instagram is such a mind-fuck app, don't you think? We are all loving and hating it at the same time. I recently read somewhere (would link the source here if I was able to remember where I read it from), that negative things are something people are more interested in, whether they want it or not. When something creates negative content, the engagement is better and it creates more conversation. And why did I brought this up? Because I believe that Instagram, as an app, is one of the most negative things I've ever stumbled upon. It's not the fault of its designers, it's not even fault of the Facebook.

It's not necessarily anyone's fault, in the meaning of the word "fault" but it's the way most of us are using it. The original designers left the whole damn thing shortly after Facebook bought the app. The team over at Facebook has come up with so many updates, that unless you're not willing to buy your followers there's no deal for you there until you've reached that magical 10k for the swipe up feature. The way people are using it, which is amazing and so very creative and beautiful, but while one after another is posting more beautiful, more creative and more amazing photos out there, it's easy to forget the fact that there are real lives behind those photos. Real lives, whose lives might not even be as glorious even though their instafeed might suggest you differently. #liveauthentic has lost its meaning.

However, those were just reasons why I think Instagram is such a negative app. It's not the reason why I deleted my Instagram account. I got sidetracked, and my ear is living its own life currently.
*types in Google "how long ear infections last"*

a hand holding the wintery moomin mug in a wintery and snowy background
In December last year, I found myself thinking about deleting my account more often. I'd lose all my few thousand followers and like I've always rooted, I've never really cared about how many followers I had. I mean, it would have been nice to reach the magical 10k, but I wasn't obsessing over to the follower count. When I eventually deleted my account, I felt like a massive weight had lifted from my shoulders. Let's dig into that "weight" more closely, shall we?

✖ the followers
"But you would lose all your followers, doesn't it feel scary?" It actually didn't. It was an easy choice. I felt like I was following so many people I didn't actually want to follow (been slowly following the ones again I used to love, I just can't remember their handles) and I found the easiest way to declutter that all, was deleting the whole damn thing.

✖ the grid
My grid was filled with pictures of everything. But why I didn't just archive them all? It would have not been the same. I wanted to get rid of it all to start off from a clean table.

✖ the bio
As you look closely to my new bio, I haven't labelled myself as anything. I'm just another person in the world of Instagram, who just happens to be into a bunch of stuff. My previous bio told that I was a potato enthusiast, wanderlust, mum, blogger, and while I still identify as those things, it's just as all over the place as my old feed was.

✖ authenticity, the heat of the moment, instant photo-sharing
Those are three things I'm going to base this blog. Those are three things I'm going to base my Instagram. I don't want to plan ahead like a maniac, take a bunch of stress out of it and oh my, think in what order the pictures look perfect on my grid. If I feel like I want to post a picture of my wool socks, I'll be damn right to post a picture of my wool socks. I want to be in the moment. And with my old account, I wasn't.

So while I went from roughly a few thousand followers to less than 200, it was the best decision I've ever made. It's part of this whole identity crisis I'm going through and a lot like this blog, I want to make Instagram as my own. There will be things that I'm passioned about, sarcastic quotes, pictures from my travels and casual day-to-day stories.

Have you ever thought of deleting your Instagram?
Would you have the courage to do that?

If you want to check my new account out, here's where you can do so.

✖ some things that could make me insanely happy at the moment

Tuesday 22 January 2019

I have been blessed, or cursed, pick your top choice, with the worst flu there can be flavoured with an extremely bad ear infection. While I'm sat here on my sofa, wrapped in a blanket like a burrito trying to turn this negative experience in my life to a positive one, imagining that at least I'm able to write I decided to share some things that could make me insanely happy at the moment. And well, the end of the sick leave isn't one of them. However, it sort of bugs me that I'm not able to go to uni and attend the programming course I've been insanely excited about.

woman sitting on a sofa, holding a yellow moomin mug

It's 11pm and while I could use this time usefully, by trying to fix my sleeping pattern I took a 4-hour nap today instead. For starters, I'm going to take a sip of my extremely sketchy Scottish tea and start dreaming my life away.

A funny story about this "extremely sketchy Scottish tea": It's basically normal Scottish tea, which I brought back home from Scotland but I brought it back in a ramen noodle wrapping. Thought it would be nice to eat noodles while staying at our Airbnb, went to Aldi and bought some, realised that they were the worst noodles I've ever eaten. Although, the wrapping was very useful for the tea we split with my travel companion.

top down picture of two coffee cups on a wooden table
✖ One thing that could make me happy at the moment is a long, hot bath.
I love how I begin these with the things I'm not able to have. Unless some of you guys want to purchase me a night in a hotel with one for my birthday next week? I can DM you my PayPal deets. Nah, that was just a joke even though I wouldn't say no to a proper bath at the moment. In my dream house, there will be a bathtub. Actually, I'm making a decision that in the next apartment I'm about to live there will be a room for a bathtub or else I won't be living there.

✖ A cup of hot chocolate could make me happy as well.
I'm not a needy person, I love simple and little things. Sometimes as little as a cup of hot chocolate or flower bouquet brought to me after a long day at work. Looks like I'm into warm and cosy things when it's -25°C degrees outside and a shitload of snow. The only thing missing from my list is the sauna.

 ✖ An adventure to some place new.
I'm not the type of a person who likes staying in one place for a long time. I mean, I live for the quote "if we were meant to stay at one place the rest of our lives we'd have roots instead of feet."
I actually have some adventures planned, though I'm going to have to wait for a little while for them. I'm not going to say no to a little weekend getaway though if someone would suggest me one. Or a night out with my buddies.

I encourage you to stop and think, what would make you happy in this very moment. We rarely do stop and think about the things that are making us happy and little dreaming never killed anyone. You can write them on a piece of a paper, or share them with me in the comment box down below. Keep them in some place safe & never give up on your dreams, eh?

✖ who am I?

Monday 21 January 2019

Instead of being like every single movie ever filmed, I decided to start the story of this blog from the very beginning. What's going on in that woman's mind who is pouring these words through her fingers on this keyboard? Seeing them turning in the pixels on her 13" Macbook Pro, hitting the "publish" button and hoping someone would read it. So who am I?
Don't expect this to be a deep and thoughtful post going into the deepest and darkest corners of my mind and life, it's not an autobiography, and rather think of this as a list about things I really like and see if there's something you can relate to as well.
Also, I sort of wanted to do this "get to know to me" - post for starters.

picture of the writer of Overdosed on Caffeine, woman with dark hair

What's going on in that woman's mind who is pouring these words through her fingers on this keyboard? Seeing them turning in the pixels on her 13" Macbook Pro, hitting the "publish" button and hoping someone would read it.

  1.  When I'm not blogging, I'm probably being on mum duty.
  2.  When I'm not spending time with my son, I'm probably coding.
  3.  Like the blog title says, I'm a caffeine addict.
  4.  I listen to rock & punk mainly, however, there are times when I need to tolerate this "music" they play on the radio and those same songs that are playing once in an hour.
  5. I got addicted to Domino's Pizza when I visited Scotland, and no, that shit does not exist in Finland.
  6. Did I mention that I'm Finnish? Ok, I've got 1,5% British in my veins apparently. But yeah, Finland born and raised.
  7. I love Winter and snow.
  8. I also refuse to celebrate my birthday if there isn't any snow on the ground on January 30th.
  9. When I was 5, I wanted to become an assassin. And when I was a bit older, I wanted to become a professional dancer. However, I shortly realised being an assassin isn't appropriate and then life got on the way and blessed me with rheumatoid arthritis, so I wasn't going to be a dancer either.
  10. I'm sarcastic as fuck.
It's your turn now, tell me something about yourself! How is life on that side of the screen?

✖ new beginnings.

Sunday 20 January 2019

Hey there, world. It has been a while.
I’m so glad you found your way to my new blog. I love writing and during the break I took, I found myself missing it more the day after day. However, I didn’t feel like going back to my old blog, Little Things With Jassy, as I felt it had come to its end. No, honestly, I loved the ”brand” I had created but as the time passes, and passed by, I wasn’t feeling that it could give me anything new.

topdown picture of a leg, hand holding a cup of coffee

Let me tell you a little story about my Autumn 2018. Autumn 2018 was the moment of change to me, in some levels. It was the worst few months for me, mentally and I kind of fell into this huge dump I’ve never been to before. Being a mum to a toddler, wife to my husband, working part-time and beginning my full-time studies at the school I had been trying to apply for the past four years really got their toll on me. I lost myself, I lost my identity and I really wasn’t feeling myself anymore. I was lost and I still am, and I’m glad you’ve found your way to this blog when I try to collect myself back up a piece by piece and try to figure out who am I. Who is Jasmin? Who she is, what she wants from life and how does she deal with all the stuff happening along the way?

So no, this won’t be a family blog. Now that D, the little Dinosaur is almost two years old, I want to keep his privacy. I’m not coming here to write about how much he’s weight, what he has learned and how he’s been doing. However, I might share some funny stories that had happened to me with him or funny things he’s said, in a side sentence. A full post? Not going to happen.

I’m going to be a selfish little bitch, and make this as something of my own. My little internet corner, where I write about things that I’m passionate about. Whether it’s where I’ve travelled, the latest gig I saw, a new pair of shoes I recently bought, a recipe I tried a while back and just really want to share it or just a ramble like this which might not even have a point at all. Or perhaps, I might have an opinion about something.
The point is, that I want to find myself and for doing that, I need to be a bit selfish at times.

So if you found your way here through my old blog, hello. It’s so very nice to have you here, even though this might not turn out to be what you expected. I really do hope you’ll stick here and enjoy what’s about to come and if you don’t, I do understand.

If you’re a new reader, welcome. I love that you’re here, I love that you’ve found your way here. I hope you’ll enjoy what’s about to come.

The truth is, I don’t care if you’re a new or an old reader, I just really love that you’re here. And I really do hope that you’ll enjoy. It’s time for the new beginnings, as cliché as it may sound, it’s a new year after all. 

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