✖ why we collectively hate Greta Thunberg

Friday, 4 October 2019

Before I begin, this is not a blog post to tear Greta Thunberg down. So if you came for that, I'm going to sincerely tell you to get your ass to somewhere else. Also, to note that most of this post is written pretty sarcastically, so just so you know.

Holy shit, that young woman is an extraordinary person, incredibly smart and someone I hope our children will look up to one day. Fuck, the girl is 16 and has done so much for the whole freaking planet, or for the very least got us all talking about the planet and the state of it.

I'm 24 and I look up to her. She's an massive inspiration to all of us.
But why are we collectively hating her? She's done nothing but said out loud the truth. Or wait for a second, is that why?

But I gathered a list. Get ready people, I have a list.

✖ she's young
The thing most adults must hate is when a young person opens their mouth and tells them how they should live their lives. That's exactly what Greta is doing, and oh boy how much the adults hate it. Is there a child who knows better? There can't be! What is this?

 she's loud
Adults hate when kids are being loud. And that being said, Greta has been incredibly loud about what she wants to say. She wants to let the adults know that the world can't keep rolling like this, and if it does, we're on our way to mass extinction.

✖ she has a point
The thing is, that adults hate even more is a kid, who happens to be loud and who actually has a point in what she's saying. It's not that adults don't know about those things, it's because they don't care and now there's a child basically forcing them to care about it.
All they care about is economic growth. Does reducing things for the sake of the planet bring them money? No, it won't. But oh to imagine to have all that money when the world is not good for us to live in anymore. Whatcha gonna do with all of that money then, huh?

Wouldn't it be time to us adults to accept that in the year of 2019, kids, young women, women in general, anyone, can make a noise about anything they want without the rest of us picking upon them? What are you, children? Ha, a child can behave better than you all. And time for us to accept that the girl has a point. Something has to be done.

✖ Autumn that arrived in all the shades of grey

Thursday, 3 October 2019

Shit guys, it's been a while.

And I don't know how to put myself into words.

Words have been disappearing from me for a while now. And I'm not really talking about the writer's block. I have tons of different things I want to say or to write but I don't know if I'm completely ready to do so yet. Things are, and things have been changing. Into a bit different way than I thought they ever would.

You know, you'd imagine two people would stay together for the rest of their lives? I certainly did and now I'm not too sure about it anymore. There are so many emotions wandering through my head right now. There are so many thoughts going on and on about so many things that I cannot simply keep up. I've been skipping uni, forcing myself to work and thinking about painting my walls green. I'm definitely going to paint my walls green. And in all this mess, trying to be the best mum to my tiny sweet boy the best that I can.

Autumn has been darker for me, than ever. It's been so dark that I'm not even excited about all the darkness anymore. I simply want to go back in time where sun was shining and everything was remotely fine. When everything was possible to fix. Not that things wouldn't be possible to fix anymore.

Autumn, that arrived in all the shades of grey. In all the shades of black. Turning slowly into Winter, possibly darker, outside and in my mind.

So earlier, when I wrote about healing, we all know by far that we can scratch that off the table now. I'm not healing anymore, I'm heartbroken and destroyed in the millions of tiny pieces I'm now trying to gather around from the ground to put myself together.

For the past month, I've been crying, I've been thinking about ending it all here. I've been thinking about vanishing. That tiny sweet thing sleeping in my bed has been the only thing in my life that has been keeping me sane. And I'm forever grateful for him to be in my life.

But I know that I'm stronger than that, it's only up to me whether I believe in myself or not.

We aren't broken up, we aren't together.
We aren't divorcing, we just don't live under the same address anymore.
We are on a break.

Can we put our marriage on a break for a year?
And what if it stays that way?
I truly, from the bottom of my heart hope that it won't.

✖ thoughts about starting a second year in uni

Monday, 9 September 2019

My second year has officially started and I've been back to uni for a couple of weeks now. The beginning was slightly chilled, especially because the whole Autumn semester is going to be spent discussing topics around AI and digital arts. We have someone who is professionalised in digital arts to teach the course, and personally, I've been flipping excited about it.

We're also doing trips to the woods, which obviously made me even more excited. Couldn't have had a softer landing back to the uni life after a long summer vacation. We're also being taught the basics of visual design and some entrepreneurship things later during the year, and I'm excited about them both. I'm pretty interested in building my own business from scratch, whatever it will include when the time is right.

The Autumn semester is going to end with our own projects that will include some of the stuff we've learned during the semester and there's an option on doing it alone or in groups. It excites me as well, as I'm a lone wolf. I am able to work in groups and I generally enjoy group work, but it's nice to be able to do something on my own as well.

This is definitely one of those semesters I can imagine raising some questions about am I actually graduating to a proper job title if you ask my relatives. But you know, do what makes you happy, right?

✖ my Autumn bucket list

Friday, 6 September 2019

I don't care when your Autumn begins, but mine begins when the calendar tells me it's September. Mainly, because in Finnish it's called Syyskuu. Syyskuu basically means Autumn Moon, so it's Autumn if you ask me.

I decided to gather around a little bucket list for myself for the Autumn, and you guys must know, I'm a huge fan of lists. Lists make my life complete and the chaos it is, it makes it make sense.

"Been thinking about my small life, depressed on my bed laid on my back, will I ever get up from here? Blinds closed, same records on a loop in my head, my pj's on at home all alone."
my Autumn bucket list
✖ wander through the forests nearby
✖ see the leaves change their colour
✖ do a little trip to Lapland
✖ spend a weekend away in a hotel with a bathtub, all by myself
✖ visit Turku, Finland
✖ not miss a day at uni
✖ work my ass off
✖ spend time with my loved ones
✖ get over a huge loss I've had to deal with lately
✖ burn scented candles
✖ drink hot chocolate
✖ watch crazy amounts of reality TV
✖ go for an evening walks
✖ watch stars in the middle of the night
✖ take my camera out more often
✖ drink oat milk latte
✖ book an appointment to a therapist
✖ enjoy days getting darker
✖ wait for winter

What's on your Autumn bucket list?

✖ 3 reasons to visit in the woods every day

Thursday, 5 September 2019

Yes, I mean it. Every damn single day. Whether it's raining, the sun is shining, snowing. There's always a good reason to visit in the forest.

I've been spending most of my summer in the forest, if I haven't been living in a sin and gotten myself drunk as fuck at the music festivals throughout the summer. And it's done wonders to me, which is why I cannot recommend it enough for you to do as well. Find a perfect spot in the woods for yourself and let all the good vibes sink in.

✖ it improves your mental health
There have been some studies which state that spending time in the woods improves your mental health. And to be fair, I can approve that message. I think I've been a whole lot more anxious if I hadn't gone to the woods on my own for a little while. As many times, that it has become a habit for me and I'm kind of getting anxious if I'm not able to go to the woods for a little while. The quietness, the smell, the focus on simply just being there and minding your steps each time you move, it does wonders to you.

✖ it connects you with the Mama Earth
Finns are funny creatures. Finnish people are built-in with the need to spend time in nature. It's in our blood, in our bones and in our culture. Not all of us, but that's the most Finnish part I have and I am fully embracing it. Mama Earth hasn't been doing well for a while now, and it absolutely breaks my heart. That's why at times, as crazy as it sounds, it's good to wander around touching the ground, hug the trees and be grateful for the beautiful world we are living in. It's something that shouldn't be taken for granted and it's something the people have been taking for granted for a really long time. That's why Mama Earth has become ill and is trying to remove the virus from itself. We should appreciate what we have until it's gone. Take a hint Brazil.

✖ it boosts your creativity
Ever went to the forest without your smartphone? Do it. And thank me later.
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